domingo, 9 de enero de 2011

Life Reflections of a Confused Girl: Part 1- Ambition

Dedicated to everybody and nobody,

Being somebody, trying to find yourself, to identify yourself with someone that fits into the profile that you have always dreamed of, it is always a struggle.

Life comes with its ups and downs of course, but when do the ups start? Why do they always have to last such a short time? It’s life, that’s what it is, some say. There is no such thing as permanent happiness, we’re always striving for more, working hard, but when does it all start being rewarding?

I try to make myself think positively, dream big, someday will come when everything that you wanted will be served for you on a silver platter, just keep on working hard, it will come, some day. But what happens if that day never comes? What happens when you get there, and that is no longer what you want?

People change, people mature and people strike for different goals, whether it’s loosing weight, getting a job, finding that person just right for you. Are we always going to have ambition for more? That insatiable thirst of just having more? Is ambition the saviour of our lives, the push we need to go on, or is it the doomer?

I’m just one single mind, one single trail of thought among thousands and thousands that are wrapped up all the time in their problems and their lifes. What is the bigger picture? I’m not saying that I have a bad life, I have so many opportunities waiting for me right outside the door, just like everybody else. But when it comes down to it, what is it exactlty that I’m supposed to do? Am I to pursue something, something that I never thought I would pursue because the opportunity arises, or am I to wait for that opportunity I have always been waiting for? What’s right for you, it may not be right for me.

There is no right choice or wrong choice, there is just choice. Unlike the movies, you will never know what would have happened if you had decided to choose otherwise. When does the feeling of taking a leap of faith ever vanish? When do we stop streching our necks to see when will it happen? When do you start to see your path? What do we have to do in order to get that enlightening moment, when we know what our path is. What do we have instore for ourselves?

Love, laugh and live life? When do we start honouring our big time life motto? Where is our principle? What’s more, why does “live your life like it’s your last day, and dream big like there is no tomorrow” always seem to be judged on by our ambition?


Forget that I am somebody, forget who I am. Whether you know me or not, I don't want you to tell me if this is good or bad. I just want you to read it, if it's good, tell somebody else to read it, if it's bad simply close the page and move on with your lifes. If it touches you just leave a number, I don't want to know who you are or what you are, I just want you to be somebody who has been touched. I don't want praises or criticisms, I just want to be heard. I just want to let others know:


I Know. 

domingo, 31 de octubre de 2010

Inside Amey's Bubble: Chapter 1- Igualada

So it's been a while since I've arrived to Barcelona!

I made promises to keep in touch with everyone but it's sooooooo harrrrrrd (quoting Emily A. Hunkler). Whoever stereotyped the Spanish to be mellow and laid back is an absolute douchebag!

Barcelona is a stresshole! And I am aware that my spelling is an absolute atrocity, but what can I say! I need to express myself with my made up words! You get the gist! And if you don't.... Then imagine a rainbow.

Don't get me wrong, my experience has been amazing so far! I love the school that I'm working in, the kids, even though they all think I don't speak Spanish or Catalan (little do they know), I live in a flat slap bang down in the middle of Barcelona with a fun and witty girl called Helena who comes from the Hud (England) and a rather annoying Polish guy (that I love like my little brother) who is far too tall for our cozy little 4th floor flat (and no there aren't any freaking stairs! Our bums have become incredibly toned).

After weeks of constant bummage regarding The Guad (Igualada) from Emily, we, as in me and my lovely Helena Mapals, decided to finally pay our Guad Squad, (Duncan Playle, Chrissy Matunas, Christina Rodriguez and of course the beautiful Emily) a visit! And man oh man is it chilled in here!

The scenery in Igualada is breathtaking. As little town surrounded by a chain of mountains, Igualada honors the Spanish siesta lifestyle. I hadn't realised the stress effect that Barcelona was having on me until I reached this little countryside gem. I can finally hear my mental voice again. All of them.

So today after I had my amazing sauna shower (I know right) I decided to finally succumb to the fashion that is, writing a Blog. Whereas Helena realised that a couple that were dressed up for our dear Emily's Birthday party were dressed as a cowboy and an a Native American for a reason. Ok so that joke actually made sense in real life but life's a bitch and you can't always have everything I guess! I'm going to mention Samuel Wight because I just have to. He's great and he's just our Sam!

So I will continue my story another day. I salute all of you that give a cucumber about my life!

Lots of Love,

Amey xoxox <3